I am about a week late posting the August Reflections blog. The truth is I just cannot seem to find the motivation to work on the blog now that I am back to work. It has been limping along the last couple of years anyway. After pondering it over the last week, I have made the decision to end it. I took myself off Twitter several months ago. Since then, my readership dropped from around 40 to around 5 people per blog. Neither number is interesting, but it does highlight how pointless forcing myself to keep writing it really is. If I am not doing it for readers, and I am not interested in doing it for myself any more, there is no reason to keep it going.
I originally started the blog because I have dreams of being a writer. I thought it would help build a writing habit, develop my writing skills, and lead me to a place where I felt ready to write fiction again. None of that happened. My habit varied over the four years I did it, but I never was 100% consistent with whatever schedule I stated. I am not sure how much it helped develop my skills. I often felt rushed to complete my posts, so I never felt like it showcased my best work. It definitely did not lead to me writing more fiction. Although I have started and stopped a few writing practices over those years, none of them lasted more than a few weeks and I have no completed work to show for my efforts. While I still hope that someday I can write the fiction that is in my head, I just do not think that time is now in my life. I never built a practice while I was not working, so it is incredibly unlikely I will build one now that I am back to work.
So that is it. The End!