I am about a week late posting the August Reflections
blog. The truth is I just cannot seem to
find the motivation to work on the blog now that I am back to work. It has been limping along the last couple of
years anyway. After pondering it over
the last week, I have made the decision to end it. I took myself off Twitter several months
ago. Since then, my readership dropped
from around 40 to around 5 people per blog.
Neither number is interesting, but it does highlight how pointless forcing
myself to keep writing it really is. If
I am not doing it for readers, and I am not interested in doing it for myself
any more, there is no reason to keep it going.
I originally started the blog because I have dreams of being
a writer. I thought it would help build
a writing habit, develop my writing skills, and lead me to a place where I felt
ready to write fiction again. None of that
happened. My habit varied over the four
years I did it, but I never was 100% consistent with whatever schedule I
stated. I am not sure how much it helped
develop my skills. I often felt rushed
to complete my posts, so I never felt like it showcased my best work. It definitely did not lead to me writing more
fiction. Although I have started and
stopped a few writing practices over those years, none of them lasted more than
a few weeks and I have no completed work to show for my efforts. While I still hope that someday I can write
the fiction that is in my head, I just do not think that time is now in my
life. I never built a practice while I
was not working, so it is incredibly unlikely I will build one now that I am
back to work.
So that is it. The
End!
