Saturday, September 7, 2019

The End


I am about a week late posting the August Reflections blog.  The truth is I just cannot seem to find the motivation to work on the blog now that I am back to work.  It has been limping along the last couple of years anyway.  After pondering it over the last week, I have made the decision to end it.  I took myself off Twitter several months ago.  Since then, my readership dropped from around 40 to around 5 people per blog.  Neither number is interesting, but it does highlight how pointless forcing myself to keep writing it really is.  If I am not doing it for readers, and I am not interested in doing it for myself any more, there is no reason to keep it going.

I originally started the blog because I have dreams of being a writer.  I thought it would help build a writing habit, develop my writing skills, and lead me to a place where I felt ready to write fiction again.  None of that happened.  My habit varied over the four years I did it, but I never was 100% consistent with whatever schedule I stated.  I am not sure how much it helped develop my skills.  I often felt rushed to complete my posts, so I never felt like it showcased my best work.  It definitely did not lead to me writing more fiction.  Although I have started and stopped a few writing practices over those years, none of them lasted more than a few weeks and I have no completed work to show for my efforts.  While I still hope that someday I can write the fiction that is in my head, I just do not think that time is now in my life.  I never built a practice while I was not working, so it is incredibly unlikely I will build one now that I am back to work.

So that is it.  The End!